Surrender

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I’ve had a lot on my mind the last couple weeks…

  • huge project at my day job
  • one small improvement project after another at our house
  • staying consistent with my exercise regiment
  • art show preparation
  • custom orders to finish
  • getting on top of the creative learning / blog schedule I created a while back
  • creative ideas I haven’t had time to experiment with yet
  • e-courses I haven’t completely finished
  • Make Art That Sells Part B starting next Monday

Each of these things seem quite simple and actually really fun, but when I get in that place where everything is swirling around together and I can no longer focus or prioritize it’s really overwhelming. And to top it off, I’ve been physically exhausted, nauseous day and night and a few times too sick to leave the couch all day!

I kept telling myself it would pass. Be strong. Keep working through it. How will you ever get anywhere if you can’t power through times like this?! and then I just surrendered. I need to take as much time to rest as my body tells me to. If I don’t, I can’t take care of my husband and home the way I’d like to, be present while I’m creating, focus fully on the orders I already have or learn as much as I can when class starts. I had to let something go and be okay with it.

Since my day job isn’t on the list of things I can responsibly do away with quite yet, it had to be my upcoming art show. I struggled with the decision for fear that I was just giving up, but in the end I know it was the right thing for me to do right now. I’ll have more opportunities in the future when the time is right. As soon as I’d left the message with the coordinator about my cancellation I felt a huge weight lifted. I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night that night (okay, I did have to pee twice per protocol, lol) BUT I wasn’t up stressing over my “to do” list afterwards, it was straight back into slumberland.

I still plan on finishing my Textile & Stitch banner and the magnets I started at some point but I’m grateful to have my life back at a pace that allows me to lie down for a nap when it’s necessary without feeling like I’m wasting valuable time, and I’m incredibly hopeful that I’ll be back with wonderful news by the end of October 

I’m sure we’ve all found ourselves in a similar position. Did you choose to push through or surrender?

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2 thoughts on “Surrender

  1. I used to plough through and paid the price. Surrender is good. We have to learn that surrender is not failure but a re-allocation of resources!

    Good job!

  2. I am sat here at 3.30am reading blog posts because I can not sleep so kind of get where you are coming from! If you feel better you made the right choice. Now I am off to ponder what I can give up….

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